applecheeks_85

31st December 2007

2007-12-31T07:31:12Z

Wow,time reallyyyyyy flies. Today is the last day of 2007 already. Less than 12 hours away,we are gonna usher into year 2008.
Year 2007 was great. Inevitably there were ups & downs, joy & sorrows, heartbreaks & friendships formed/broken.....well,its a year so special to me,I can hardly find proper words to describe it.
To sum it up in a sentence.....there were no mistakes made,just lessons learnt. =)
I must say I'm a total different person now compared to the beginning of 2007. I'm much wiser & stronger after all I've been through. I'm an adult now. (sad to say but true since a-hem the big day is less than a fortnight away)
I've learnt...

1) STPM is nothing,not because it was easy but rather,I hated it. The syllabus is so bloody wide but they only test us on very minor aspects. Not forgetting the bias you-know-what system.
2) Psychology is truly my passion. <3
3) Falling in love for the sake of falling in love (or just because of good looks wtf) is a crime. Okay la maybe its a foolish idea.
4) Having your heart broken to pieces is the most terrible feeling everrrrr.
5) Family & Friends are my pillars of strength. Thank God for them.
6) Appreciate everything we have & live everyday to the fullest as we have no idea what will happen next.
7) Be kind. Karma will find its way if you are not.

The last day of the year is the coolest because we can refer to 1st of January as TOMORROW or NEXT YEAR. Damn kewl eh?
=,=
Hmmmmm...what else to say ar? Okay I'm quitting LiveJournal for good. I have nothing against it in fact I'm glad it teman-ed me for the past 3 years. ( I miscalculated that day,supposed to be 3 instead of 2. =P ) I'm not sure whether I wanna shift all the posts to the new blog as I'm going to make the new one public because it has password protected post !!!!!!!! I like ! The reason I didn't give too many people this link was because I'm scared to let people know some of my deepest darkest secrets of feelings. Sometimes I post emo entries & they can be quite personal. I'm afraid & reluctant to show people how vulnerable I feel at times. I'll miss you applecheeks-85.livejournal.com. =(

For me,to stumble upon obstacles in the journey of life is actually a blessing in disguise.
HUUAAAAAA.....I felt so wise after saying that wtf.

How can I end this post without a picture of myself righttttt.... ^_^

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May 2008 brings us joy,hope & happiness. Lets cherish our loved ones & strive to be someone whom we would be proud of. =)

I can't think of a title.

2007-12-27T10:03:57Z

I was expecting a fun filled holiday but so far what I've been doing is wake up at 8am to wash clothes,do other house chores,cook,clean/tidy my room,watch Taiwanese drama on Youtube,go out with friends,attended cousin's wedding,hang out with Okcupid guy & just watching tv at home.
Right now I'm so bored I think I feel like working part time. But of course I don't think anyone wants to hire someone who would only work for a week plus & I'm also lazy to find a job.
Sigh. I was looking forward to holidays because my 2nd semester was pretty tiring & hectic. Meeting up with friends who came back from overseas for their holidays is gooooood. But I just don't feel the vibe you know,like how you wanna jump with joy when you see them & hug them so tightly. Everything that I pictured would happen didn't exactly happened.
Its not that I'm not enjoying my holidays,but I feel the pace is rather slow & dull. =,=
Now I wish class starts tomorrow,at least I have something to look forward to.
But I don't want my classes to start so soon because by then.....
1) My friends will fly back to Australia/Indonesia/Sabah to resume their studies.
2) The slut is going to the States for 2 years to study as well. T________T Who am I supposed to turn to when I need to have a massive bitching or emo session? T_______________T
3) Assignments & waking up early.
4) Somebody will be back in Melbourne.
5) I'll be turning 21. God I'm old. I get alot of "How/Where are you gonna celebrate?". Frankly speaking,I'm not a big fan of birthday parties when it comes to me myself celebrating it. Since young,I was taught that on my birthday,my Mommy suffered the most to bring me here so the right way to celebrate my birthday is not to hold an extravagant birthday party,rather,make or buy a present for my Mommy. She still keeps the cards that I made. =)

Yeahhh,so I don't think turning 21 is a big deal. I rather just have a quiet dinner with family & close friends than party the night away & test my alcohol tolerance.Okay that sounds boring but I think its whom you spend your birthday with is more important than how or where.
Hmm speaking of alcohol,I must remember not to drink any with an empty stomach. Last night while watching the Man Utd game with Okcupid guy I had a glass of err....grape + lil alcohol drink. Well I wasn't hungry just that I ate quite lil during dinner since my relatives said I gained a few pounds. =( So the drink was fine until I finished the whole glass & I started feeling abit light headed when I was in the washroom. & my stomach had this empty sensation telling me that I was hungry. =(

Sis : So you slept in his car on the way back?
Me : Err,yeah. Was resting my eyes & try not to feel dizzy but felt asleep pulak.
Sis : Huh?? So berani ah you,later if he take you some where & sell you off to other people how??
Me : -_-"

I don't feel like blogging about the dates because when I blog about relationship matters I usually jinx em. Ugh benci.
All I can say is......so far so good. =)
I've been blog hopping much much more frequently nowadays & I really don't like the idea of people (like me) reading others' blogs without them knowing. So far my favourite blogger is Suet Li & I read her EVERYDAY gosh I sound like a stalker but hey I am wtf. I'm influenced by her regarding the use of "wtf" which is reallyyyyy useful when you wanna let someone know you are being sarcastic wtf. Okay thats not how you are supposed to use it wtf. OKAY STOP STOP STOP. Kenny Sia at times just to read his travel logs since my other lifelong dream besides settling down with a special someone & live happily ever after with 4 kids is to travel around. & a few others just for pictures.
I'm thinking of locking up this blog but it seems that after clicking on several buttons on this page I found out I have to edit all entries one by one & make them private or for friends only to view em. Ya Allah troublesome nye.
So I'm thinking of creating another LiveJournal account & start all over again.
Right now,I have no idea who is reading my blog besides my few close friends whom I gave the link to. & like I mentioned,I don't like the idea of random people reading other random bloggers' blogs. Its damn weird because its like I see this guy in Uni & I'll be thinking "Hmmm I knew what he did last Saturday because I came across his girlfriend's/cousin's/sister's/neighbour's blog."
Okay I'll start thinking of a name for my new blog. I'll miss this blog since it documented all my 3 break ups wtf. & all the sad-stupid-fell-for-jerks entries. & also......memories for the past 2 years. *shrugs*
But every beginning has an ending. The moon will not always be full. (own proverb wtf) Okay can't think of anything else to write,maybe I'll end this with a last entry summarizing what happened in my life during 2007 .
Tll then.

Ipoh mali.....Ipoh Ipoh mali.....

2007-12-23T05:46:19Z

I'm back in Ipoh !!!!!
Another wedding i.e the 3rd wedding this year. This time is my cousin brother who is gonna be the groom. I love weddings & his room is decorated nicely all set for the wedding. =) I'm typing away using his SONY VAIO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I swear with this Vaio I can finish all my assignments 2 weeks before due date & pass all my exams with flying colorssssssss.
Its white by the way,such a babyyyyy. Maybe if I cling on to it tight on the day before I go back to KL,my Daddy might get the hint that all I want for my birthday is a Vaio wtf.
ANYWAY,the feeling of blogging with a Vaio & my own PC is wayyyy different. All of sudden I feel so smart,you know like the scenes in Legally Blond,when Elle got herself a new laptop she could do so well compared to when she only had a pink note pad & a pink fluffy pen.
While I was chatting yesterday,Richard was amazed that Ipoh has Internet connection. He was even more shocked when I told him I'm using Wifi.
-______________-"
What?? You think Ipoh is some kinda ulu place & every household only has a black & white tv & we live in rumah papan ah wtf. I don't even own a 40 inch LCD back in Kota Kemuning haha.
Ee Lin & Yong Long are in Singapore now. =( I wanna go to Singapore too ! & I'm gonna miss the Christmas Eve party at WGW's house since I'll be having sharkfin soup instead hohoho Merry Christmas but I would wanna celebrate Christmas Eve with them than busy acting pretty & ushering the guests to their seats.
Cousin invited 500 over guests. 0_o & I'm wearing my heels so.....gone la kaki aku. I wonder why I always have to play the role of usherer or sit at the reception during weddings.
I was forwarding some sms yesterday to people whom I haven't been contacting for quite some time & I felt sad.
Reallyyyyyyyyy sad.
Why?
Out of the 20 something people I messaged,a few replied,another few replied with a "Who is this?" & the rest.....well,I dunno la.
What made me upset was not because people didn't reply me,because you don't have to reply forwarded messages. But those who asked "Who is this?",man........means they deleted my number already? =(((
I smell durian !!! Okay gotta bounce.
Merry Christmas !

I'm a princess

2007-12-17T16:07:10Z

I find MSN conversations very,very amusing. Period.

Yong Long (8) says:
so how, be daddy's little gal or jun xiang's crazy fan
i'm a princess says:
haha
i'm a princess says:
be a princess wtf
Yong Long (8) says:
juz stay at home and edit pictures of u by adding a tiara wtf?
Yong Long (8) says:
plz remember ur not a real princess wtf
i'm a princess says:
I AM
i'm a princess says:
i hv a kingdom OK
Yong Long (8) says:
oh tat
Yong Long (8) says:
wonder y ppl pay parking u get ntg
Yong Long (8) says:
ehh
Yong Long (8) says:
y u need to pay parking ar anyway
i'm a princess says:
cos i respect my country's laws
Yong Long (8) says:
wtf

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Yong Long (8) says:
hey
Yong Long (8) says:
wat do u think about the blog title 'kopi ice with yong long'
Yong Long (8) says:
does it sound weird 0.o
Yong Long (8) says:
honestly
i'm a princess says:
KOPI ICE WTF AHAHA
i'm a princess says:
ahem
i'm a princess says:
erm
i'm a princess says:
sounds like koffee wit karan WTF
Yong Long (8) says:
yea i know haha
Yong Long (8) says:
kopi wert not coffee
Yong Long (8) says:
and its kopi ice wtf
i'm a princess says:
haha
Yong Long (8) says:
so how ? sounds weird?
i'm a princess says:
do u watch koffee wit karan?
Yong Long (8) says:
not really oh
i'm a princess says:
y not u use a kinda drink which starts wit Y
Yong Long (8) says:
oooo tat's y he use koffee 0.o
Yong Long (8) says:
didnt thought of dat
Yong Long (8) says:
yakult with yong long wtf
i'm a princess says:
hehe yeap
i'm a princess says:
sounds cool eh?
i'm a princess says:
i know !
i'm a princess says:
yogurt wit yong long
Yong Long (8) says:
hnn
i'm a princess says:
YAKULT WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
i'm a princess says:
damn creative sial
Yong Long (8) says:
sounds gay somehow ==
i'm a princess says:
*worship*
Yong Long (8) says:
but then its like advertising wtf
i'm a princess says:
or or or
i'm a princess says:
do it like him la
Yong Long (8) says:
tell tell :|
i'm a princess says:
chance coffee to koffee
i'm a princess says:
chance d alphabets
Yong Long (8) says:
england powerrrrr
Yong Long (8) says:
yoffee with yong long wtf
i'm a princess says:
like how viet sluts change cute to kute WTF
Yong Long (8) says:
yoya bean
Yong Long (8) says:
yilk
Yong Long (8) says:
yeer
Yong Long (8) says:
wtf mus go check boozemail
i'm a princess says:
omigod i'm laughing so damn harddddddddddd
Yong Long (8) says:
which 1
i'm a princess says:
can i post tis on my blog?
Yong Long (8) says:
yea go ahead no 1 reads ur blog anyway wtf

Of Facebook & everything else

2007-12-13T05:50:19Z

I think Facebook helps people bond. Like in Fightlcub,I feel damn happy wey,knowing that my friends are supporting my fight against some other people. Okay it sounds rather silly but the act of your friends clicking a Yes on you rather than your opponent means so muchhhh...
Because I clicked a Yes on my friends' opponents if I see that they are close to winning & my friends have VERY SLIM chances to win.
Just for the sake of collecting money.
Damn teruk rite.
Anyway its just damn cool for me la,hehe. This whole Fightclub thingy. Not really a big deal but I feel happyyyyyy seeing my supporters' list. A lil boost to my self-esteem,knowing that my friends support my fights & also a bit surprised when the opponents' friends chose to support me.
OKAYYYYY I shall talk about something more interesting. Last night we had another social gathering among the Psychology students & lecturers. Just for food & konon celebrating for Christmas. It was pretty fun,especially during the games session. Oh man,my dream came true !!! Dr Teoh was being dressed up as Santa !!! Its a pity I didn't take any pictures of him so I shall post it up when I get my hands on them. SO DAMN ADORABLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.....
Oh yea,the theme was red & white. But I wore something close to red la,pink. Heh Heh. I had white though. But the Psychology Club's prez asked me "Where is your red ??" Oh well,Dr Teoh didn't wear red or white either !

Sam : Dr Teoh where is your red & white?
Dr Teoh : *looks at his attire & held up the string thingy hanging around his neck * Orange.

AHAHAHAHA,the way he said "Orange" as a matter of factly cracks me up like maddddddd. As if orange is a combination of white & red. 0_o

This is Dr Teoh The Adorable,as you can see,he is very sporting & played Twister with the boys during our previous social gathering. Hehe.

I was just telling my friends the other day,to make something sounds like it is realted to Psychology,associate it with the word "Social".
Social comparison. Social facilitation. Social loathing. Social support. Social fried rice. (there there Yong Long,I know you were trying very hard to use the word "Social" on something but this is not how it works. XD )
Aaah...so now we know instead of Christmas dinner or Annual Gathering,we have SOCIAL Gathering for the Psycho-s.

This is what I wore & yes,the Korean inspired outfit. I dunno whats with me & the finger pointing fetish. I have quite alot of pictures like this.

Sigh I guess I just wanted to look kawaii la

An entry.

2007-12-11T05:46:00Z

Exams overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !!!!!
But I'm not in a good mood because my Mommy was admitted to the hospital last night. Slipped disc. =(((
Sigh it hurts to see her suffer & I can't do anything to help her ease the pain. Health is wealth,how true is that. If only money can buy the strongest & most effective anaesthetic.....
Anyway,He Jun Xiang's new drama is out !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Its called Dou Niu Yao Bu Yao,but so weird la,in English the title is called Bull Fighting. 0_o The entire drama is about basketball & no,there ain't no bull in there.
Shit,all of sudden change topic pulak. According to NIsha & Yong Long,I have very short attention span. & also short term memory.
Example, we were discussing about our exams during lunch. Then Rachel took out a rather old RM5.
"Yea la,the paper is hard rite? Since when is it our fault for not studying hard? SInce when.......OH LOOK, an old RM5 note ! " =,=

Then another time,I was walking with Nisha,passing by some classrooms.
Me : Eh do you know why I wanna go to Orange? Because I like to eat the Pan Mee over there.
Nisha : Uhuh.
Me : Eh look,this classroom is carpeted.
Nisha : Yea,but it stinks though.
Me : Hmm...is it?

After walking down the stairs & 3 minutes later...
Me : Eh do you know why I wanna go to Orange? Because I like to eat the Pan Mee over there.
Nisha : Yea you told me that. Right before we passed by that classroom.

-_-"

Tonight is the night !!!

Fightclub

2007-12-08T05:05:22Z

FightPoke sent; your street credit increased from 2.13 to 2.18 and you gained $10 for
FightPoking a Virgin (someone with no Fighters' Club interaction in 7 days)!

So near yet so far.

2007-11-30T13:39:10Z

I was just telling my Daddy what is Facebook & how it works,since I accidentally told him I saw my Koh Koh's picture on Facebook. So there he was,wearing his long sighted glasses getting a good look at the computer screen as I clicked clicked clicked away. I was extremely careful & tried not to let him view my profile since you know la,its kinda weird to have your own Daddy viewing your own Facebook profile together-gether. What if he starts asking me what is Naugthy Gifts? What is Superpoke? Why is my mood set to Flirty ? etc etc. & luckily I changed my sexyback profile pic that day,so okaylah. Phew. =)
Recently I've been hanging around the library ( okay fine,STUDYING in the library,was trying to make the library a cooler place if I used the word "hang out" instead of "study" ) because my finals is next week. MONDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !!! *hyperventilates*

1st pic : Me bored with studying & decided to camwhore but a rather tak jadi attempt. Maybe it did jadi abit la,heh heh,I looked as if I was contemplating about someting rather seriously hmmmm...
2nd pic : My I/O notes. By looking at this pic,I feel so satisfied sial. But I should have taken another pic with my mind map,hehe.
3rd pic : I shall put this pic up whenever I blog about my studies,hehe. I call it the "camwhoring while studying pic".

My favourite subject for now is Industrial & Organizational subject,which I just spent the entire day with but seriously this subject is da shiznit. It is extremely relevant to people especially those who are working,but the motivation & leadership part is very interesting too since most of the time we hear people say "I need motivation to....... (fill in any verb)" & "I wish I was the leader of this (fill in any event) so things might not be as screwed up."
Next is Social Psychology,we talk about people,their behavior,so of the norms & also my favourite topic ~ Love. Social Psychology is fascinating yet sometimes we tend to think "Oh thats common sense." Hmm hopefully I'll be able to apply those theories since I expect the questions to be applications inclined more than just defining & explaining.
Then its Community Mental Health,another semi common sense subject,involves empathy,understanding & you know la all the usual stuff to err,promote the community's mental health?
Geez I'm totally lost in Developmental Psychology. Yea although I love kids & all but I can't seem to make sense of most of the theories,or more like I can't remember all of them since sigh all psychologists wanna be unique create their own theories. T________T But I do agree that we should let the kids grow up naturally & be happy for the rest of their lives wooooooooo... Okay maybe thats pretty impossible but my lifelong dream is to have 4 kids,2 boys,2 girls. I wanna have a girl,then a boy,then a girl & then another boy.
Why? Because I know GIRLS can take good care of their siblings better. *coughmalescough*
But also because in Mandarin,the word "girl" combined with the word "boy" somehow spells the word "good" or Hao. So I must have a girl FIRST before a boy to create the word Hao. OCD Mommy hehe.
Unless they have a super nice Koh Koh who showers the lil sister with branded stuff once in awhile. Ooh how I love my Koh Koh... *manjas* Oh yea,wanted to blog about that but maybe after my finals la.
I was playing badminton with the kids at the playground then this other kid (around 6 to 7 years old ) came cycling over & started rapping !!! Serious shit rapping wey. With the hand movements of "yo-yo" & all. Then I realized he was imitating the fella who posted a video on Youtube.

"Wo ai wo de guo,you guo cai you jia,wo....(I forgot part of the lyrics).......mai gia lu mai gia" ( I love my country,it is because the existence of this country only theres me & now I standing here talking to you please don't be scared )

Yea,the video which sparked controversy but ANYWAY,he cheekily added "....KAU LUI" (pikat girls) at the end of the rap when he started singing for the 2nd,3rd,4th,5th............time & he was teasing the other boys who came & play with me.
"Wey why are you looking at the girl? You wanna KAU LUI ah?"
"Eh the LENG LUI say don't play like that ah,later you fall down,ahaha"
-_-"
Kids nowadays sigh.
Phew thank goodness he didn't address me as aunty or else there might have been some "accident" like a flying racquet towards his bike or what wtf.
Anyway to make myself feel better after a long day of studying (yea man,I reached the Uni library at 8am ya allah & studied till 5pm I think thats a record and and and recently I've been drinking too much coffee also sigh what to do although coffee makes my heart beats like 100 times per minute) I shall end this post with my pics hohoho why isn't anyone surprised?

This is me with my new outfit,I really like it cause it made me feel so Korean wooooooo.... ^_^
Me & my Korean fetish ahaha.

Me again but with my hair tied up. I'm still thinking whether I look better with my hair tied up or otherwise. So I uploaded this pic on Friendster & the previous one on Facebook. Shit,I forgot to conduct a poll wtf.

I think my smile is exactly the same in both of the pics. 0_o But I took quite alot of pics & picked the best among the best (cheh!) to upload since I look terrible during the pre exams period sigh. & since I still love taking pictures no matter when ahaha.
Wish me luck !!!

I love him to bits !!!

2007-11-26T14:58:22Z

.DKNY JEANS.ESPRIT.edc.TOMMY HILFIGER.GUESS JEANS.

Insecurity.

2007-11-25T04:07:22Z

I'm falling in love with Corrinne May's songs. When I first heard her songs I thought she is a Caucasian but she is a Singaporean ! So cool,she writes & composes her own songs. I love the lyrics,the melody, her voice & basically everything about her. She is so talented I think she is the female version of Jay Chou hohoho. I have a thing for female singers with deep voice,not like deep manly voice la,but Corrinne May is just nice. Something like Evanescence's female singer's voice.

E V E R Y T H I N G I N I T S T I M E
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo & Carole Bayer Sager
Copyright 2001 Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP) / All About Me Music adm. by Warner Tamerlane Publishing Corp. (BMI)

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Finals in a weeks time. THE HORRORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!! =( I'm very,extremely not prepared for this. Everytime I study,I can understand what is going on but Im worried whether I can answer & apply the theories during the 3 hours examination time. T_____T
Okay I shall not have this kinda pessimistic attitude !!! I can do it oh yes I can wooooooooo...

Will be meeting up with this Okcupid guy soon. A decent one.
I'm having mixed feelings.
How long does someone take to fall in love?
How long does someone take to fall out of love?
The Japan bullet train dating style is a major no-no.
But how do you explain the way you feel as if there is some kinda connection with someone you haven't met?
Does flirting eventually leads to dating?

I'm not searching for love,I'm just curious.

A woman's worth.

2007-11-20T11:15:28Z

Last Sunday was my ex boyfriend's birthday. I can remember the date very well but I didn't wish him. 1st,my credit expired. 2nd, I don't think it makes any difference if I were to wish him or not.
I can still remember how it was when the courtship began. We will chat for hours even till the wee hours in the morning,him telling me how he was addicted to chatting with me,me waiting for his phone calls & sms until one fine day we finally became an item. I must say the stage before getting together is the best. You can flirt, tease, act cute & basically just do whatever because its a two way thing & you don't have to feel silly about it.

Is every boy girl relationship similiar to the typical courting stage ---> get together stage---> conflict arises/difference in interest stage ---> break up stage ----> mourning stage ---> not talking to each other forever stage ?

Seriously I'm freaking annoyed by the fact we cannot talk to each other like normal friends after the break up. No,when we see each other online we don't even say "hi". Yes of course I'm expecting him to say "hi" since he is the dumper & because he is the one with balls no matter what a guy has to say "hi" 1st okay isn't that the universal rule? It would be pretty desperate if the dumpee were to say "hi" most of the time. Its not like the break up was 3 months ago or what. This just proves we can't even maintain a friendship what more an exclusive boyfriend girlfriend relationship? I sound as if I'm extremely pissed and possibly still holding a grudge because he dumped me so abruptly but the truth is,I'm wayyyy over the break up but his rotten post break up attitude just irks me so badly & sometimes I wonder why the fuck I fell for this type of guy.

So moral of the story,never fall in love for the sake of falling in love.

If I refrained from being so slutty & accepting him into my life just after months we knew each other,we might be friends till now. It is impossible to know a person thoroughly just through the Internet and a short time frame. & of course if he has the intention to get close to you,he would portray his best traits & yada yada the rest is history.

I think I made my decisions too soon previously. No wonder all ended up like shit. I have doubts when people compliment my physical attractiveness. I mean,not to say I'm damn pretty like some beauty queen la but I think I rather people notice my personality & try not to focus too much on the physical traits. Stupid Okcupid network,all users are a bunch of perverts who talks about erection & cybersex. WTF. I'm not looking for my true love via Okcupid la just join for fun since I'm hip & young hohohaha but sometimes people can be so horny & retarded & willingly degrade themselves in front of strangers. Wankers.

A "happy belated birthday" sms would also be redundant since it is a potential sign of me trying to act as if I only remember his birthday a few days after & also just wishing him for the sake of wishing since we don't even contact each other anymore.

Yummmmmmmmm...

2007-11-08T06:03:58Z

This is what I'm talking about,ALL JAPANESE BOYS CHEERLEADING TEAM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get the chills when I was watching this video. It is THAT goooooooood.

I'm a cheap slut.

2007-11-07T12:51:37Z

Yea la,who would be so gatal wanna join some stupid OkCupid network which plays a role of some online dating service where you meet random people who are as gatal or lonely & desperate to seek new friends or potential boyfriend/girlfriend or sex partners etc.
I'm not exactly lonely desperate or horny & pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee do you expect to meet people who are genuine on this kinda corny network? Actually I created an account just for flirting purposes. But now I'm beginning to regret for posting my pic up because it is attracting the godamn wrong company.
Think 34 year old specy male who is semi balding & nicknamed himself Bookworm73. 0_o

34M, Singapore, Singapore

"halo,we have much the same thinking towards love..
how are you doing, lately?
how did u manage to find this website? "

He is the one on the right by the way. T__________________________T

I DO NOT THINK WE WILL EVER SHARE THE SAME THINKING TOWARDS LOVE. NEVER. EVER.

I know you might think I said that due to his looks but seriously,how much do you know me? How the hell would you know we have the same thinking towards love??? I love men,so does it means he love men too? 0_o
Points to ponder wtf.

Another guy who is 23 whom we suspect that he has ADHD,don't have his picture though but he give me the creeps as he kept showering me with compliments regarding my smile, tried to ask me out for tea after just a few emails gosh what is wrong with people nowadays & extremely enthusiastic la whenever we chat. (another slutty act of mine : give out MSN contact when asked like people distributing flyers at a roadside. T_____________T )

Another guy is some 29 year old mat salleh from Australia but he is on friendly terms with me since we only discuss about Malaysian food & our Uni lives.

Then theres this 25 year old dude with his pic on the right who just dropped me a message...

25M, Petaling Jaya, Malaysia

" hiee hiee..u look so familiar to me.. hmmm.. how r ya ? "

Alright,1st of all...............WHO THE HECK IN THE RIGHT FRAME OF MIND WOULD SAY " HIEE HIEE " ????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & gawd he is freaking 25 years old. Look I don't blame those underage kids who believes in being kawaii can be sent to heaven but HIM ??? Anyway I never understand the logic behind using the word "hiee hiee" to greet people instead of the normal "hi" or "hello".
WTF is "hiee hiee" ?? Damn annoying okayyyy niiaseng.
& bloody hell, the "you look so familiar to me" phrase is damn old school la. Better luck next time wtf.

So far the most normal stranger of them all would be this 22 year old guy.
"You seem like a genuine and honest person.
Would like to get to know you more as a friend."

How simple & easy is that rite !!! & I feel so much comfortable. It is possible to have sane people on OkCupid & my intention is solely just looking around for new friends,although I stated there that I'm looking for long term relationship. That serves the purpose of scaring potential random strangers who are searching for a fling.

And then...........................on a fine afternoon after my Moral class,2 guys approached me & asked for my number. 0_o Damn sudden wey,they came exactly a minute after May Leen left me for lunch.
"Hi,you are from Moral class rite? Can you give us your number? Our friend wants to know you but he is very very shy."

"Erm,who is your friend? Why is he so shy? You can ask him to come here & talk to me,I won't bite." (damn come to think of it,they could have misintepret that sentence as a giving the green light indication to be best friends with me foreverrrrrrrrrrrrrr)

"Well,our friend is very very shy you see." The other guy said. (crap,you read me like a book. how did you know I have no idea what is the true meaning of the word SHY till you both have to repeat it TWICE?)

"Erm,just ask him to come over." (because I don't freaking wanna give you my number you crazy mofo)

Okay so the guy did came over & we had a brief 3 minutes chat. Hmm,his 1st impression was screwed as i don't dig shy ball-less guys who don't even have the guts to ask for a girl's number. I find it effing rude la to have your friend to ask for people's number,not sincere as well. Shit la,I saying all these as if I'm a damn good catch. But seriously,I've set the standards of a potential boyfriend so bloody high I think I'll end up being single till I'm 40. I want a boyfriend who is.....
1) Super duper caring
2) Considerate
3) Humorous
4) At least 180cm tall because I wanna wear my pretty pretty heels when we go out
5) Lean,yummy, hugable body rarw..............
6) A guy with substance a.k.a Intelligent/smart/knowledgable as I really crave for some intellectual conversations instead of just "baby i love youuuuuu" all the time
7) Respects & cares for his & my family
8) Loves me to death wtf. Okay more like loves & accepts me for who I am. This is the most important bit as the previous few failed to do so. It sounds easy yet it could be challenging when the relationship progress further day by day.

Okay Happy Deepavali babai.

Annoyed

2007-11-03T16:09:24Z

Sometimes I really don't get girls who have boyfriends. Okay not ALL of them but those who would ditch their friends when they are preoccupied with their boyfriends & when he is not around,she comes bugging you with sms-es or trying to make plans to go out.
WTF man,I really hate being those friends who are supposedly their back up plan if they have nothing to do. I seriously cannot remember being like them when I had a boyfriend. It annoys the shit outta me because you can sense their intention of trying to contact you is solely because they have nothing else better to do. *rant rant rant rant rant*
Come to think of it,maybe I did come across as someone who uses other people as a back up plan when I have nothing else to do. But not as awful as them,mine are mild cases & I did not cling on to my boyfriends for dear life when we were together. Okay everyone is not perfect & thou shalt not hate manipulators. Pfft.
Nolah cannot I seriously loathe them to death !!! Call me over sensitive. But this friend of mine who recently found this new guy in her life never ever chat with me on MSN anymore. Nope. Never ever. Unless she needs to find out about something or she has to pass a message or what. Compared to the time when she was just having a fling (my opinion) but now she totally portrayed herself as the type of friend who gives priority to the guy rather than anything in her life. Maybe I'm wrong,but that is what I see. C'mon la sms-ing like 24/7 & minimum 1 hour phone call every day???
Do I have issues? What is wrong with people having a good time with their boyfriends?
I dunno how to explain this feeling but sometimes I wish I wasn't such a coward & just tell this straight to their face about what is bothering me. I'm not being sour just because I'm single. I want my friends to understand the fact that I'm here for them if they need me but please make an effort to maintain our friendship & not only during your down times. I've had enough of this stupid issue. Maybe I shouldn't wear a mask anymore & just treat them coldly whenever they try to talk to me WHEN THE GUY IS NOT AROUND TO ENTERTAIN THEM.

Sometimes I miss the feeling of being loved by a special someone,it is very therapeutic when you can share your feelings,joy,sorrow with the one you love. 5 months ago,I held on to this belief. But I feel so exhausted after being engulfed by numerous false hopes & visions. Singledom habituated me to independence.

RARWWWWWWWWWWW

2007-10-30T15:54:41Z

Anyunghaseiyo...

2007-10-29T13:37:22Z

After so loooooong...I almost forgot that I have a blog,haha.
Anyway,was pretty busy for the past 2 weeks,racing against time to try to finish my assignments,attending my cousie's wedding for 2 weekends due to it being held in 2 different places & now before I get busy again with my assignments & coughtaiwansesdarmacough I think I shall update a lil about whats happening recently.
Yup,I thought I've learnt for my lessons but it seems that I still do last minute work. =( Stupid la,the feeling of wanting to fall asleep but you can't because you need to finish up your work on time sucks big time. I MUST CHANGE THIS BAD HABIT OR ELSE I WON'T BE ABLE TO SURVIVE 3 YEARS IN UNI YA ALLAH.
After fooling around with the groom & letting him endure many "test" before entering the bride's room,we are off to Parit Buntar. So those people from Parit Buntar (basically they are the so called "heng tai-s" of the groom who came along to welcome the bride to the groom's family,& Parit Buntar is an extremely isolated place where the they can only seek for entertainment by crossing over to Penang because they have NOTHING but just padi fields,cows,ducks,chickens erm yea just the normal farm animals and houses, shoplots & restaurants which serve tom yam fish for wedding dinner instead of the normal sharkfin soup okay you get the drift now.) said that we can go to THREE states within FIVE minutes. 0_o
Okay the place is a roundabout where we were at Perak,then we turned to 9 o'clock we reached Kedah & after a few junctions we reached Penang. Woohoo.

My family & my stunning cousie as the bride of the day. Seriously,she looked amazingly gorgeous that day. Omigod why lah all the Foong genes like so good only. >,< But Daddy was shouting at the computer screen when I showed him this picture. "WALAO WEY WHY AM I SO FAT IN THIS PICTURE???" It seems that he put on 5kg for not playing badminton anymore since March or something. He even said "If you were to send this picture to Koh Koh,please make sure you phothoshop it & make me slimmer."
-_-"
I still have loads of pictures to post up but my drama is about to start so maybe after I organize them & post it up some other day.

On a very random note,I remember my 2nd ex boyfriend used to tell me...
"Eh you know rite,my friends rated you as number 3."
"What is number 3?"
"Nah,nothing much. Its just outta the 4 girls I date,you are at number 3."
" 0_o Really? *half devastated* Erm,then who is at number 4?"
"Ohh,the girl that looks abit like you."
"-_-"........Ohh so I'm only at number 3 la?"
"Its okay,if you want to be number 1 also can."
I managed to not make a big deal out of it but of course my self-esteem was half crushed la. Crazy meh,number 3 wor,outta FOUR girls?? T________T

Then the Vietnamese...
"You know,I've dated hot chicks in the past,but now I know,what matters most is who you are,not how you look like."
"Is it? Were they really that hot? *sedih* "
"Hmmm,yea. But don't worry,looks doesn't matter. I know now. Even though they are all pretty,but its just nothing."
" *speechless* "

WHAT IS THIS?? WAS THAT LIKE SOME HINT THAT I"M UGLY BUT YOU CAN ACCEPT ME BECAUSE LOOKS DOESN"T MATTER??? Some more must double emphasize on "looks doesn't matter" T_______________T

Is it because I look like that thats why they made those statements?? T___T & yea,I cropped my cousins out becasue I crop pictures for a living. Nolah,don't know why I like cropping my pictures nowadays,is this some kinda weird syndrome??? Cropaholic wtf.

But I have no self-esteem issues now la. I know because there is this weird scenario where after every break up I become hotter ahaha. I'm not sure how true is that la but everytime I look at the pictures pre & post break up,somehow I look better post break up. Conclusion : Stay single & look hot forever & ever....ever ever....ever ever................................. -_-"

Have we met?

2007-10-11T14:35:31Z

I was watching The Lake House on HBO awhile ago and it was sweet,amazing,fantastic and heart warming.
Maybe some might not find it as amazing as I described but I'm a sucker for all those romantic flicks la,some more staring Keanu Reeves hmmmm when was it I last saw him? Aahhh, Constantine, good show good show.
Anyway the synopsis of the movie was these two fella,the girl living in year 2006 and the guy in 2004. They exchange letters through the mail box by the lake house yada yada then they fell in love while in the progress Keanu Reeves tried to search for the girl to be with her & all. It is a movie about love agaisnt dictance but this time around they are 2 years apart.
Yea,pretty fake but still heat warming.
I mean,how could we be 2 years apart from someone rite? But it would be cool as we can prevent death like how it happened in the movie.
"Don't look for me,just wait for me,I'll be at the lake house 2 years from now." .............or something like that. The last part of course,as cliche as its supposed to be,they met & live happily ever after. That was 2008. So they waited four years to be with each other.
Does this apply to real life situations as well? I mean,how could someone possibly still have their eyes on the same person after four years? Unless the person is really worth the wait,I don't mind as well.

~Every song has an end but is there a reason not to enjoy the music? -Peyton Sawyer- ~

I love this quote,somehow it reflects what I'm thinking now.I'm being very contemplative recently.I also changed for the better,doing my assignments everyday & not wait till the eleventh hour. & it feels good to actually work hard on my assignments. Very satisfying & for once I don't feel as if I've let my dad down by wasting his hard earned money paying my tuition fees. T__________T

This was taken before I performed for the Mooncake Festival celebration at the temple a week ago. I wonder how I managed to put on this smile,so not me,this is like "I'm a shy oriental girl from the East nice to meet you". I think my camwhoring skills improving day by day. XD

Aah.....I prefer this one better. It is the "2000 years ago oriental lady from China with the emo look because she has to cook,clean & please her husband"
& I don't look as if I took this pic by myself right right right?? I think it looks like a studio shot. >,< *syok sendiri*

An extremely productive day.

2007-10-10T15:44:07Z

Voila !!! Today I went to the library with my new found study kaki/chatting kaki/facebook kaki/gay kaki to do research for our term paper. 3000 words term paper. *emphasize*
Individual assignment some more. *double emphasizing*
We changed our topic yesterday night & omigod luckily we did because we found a whole lot of sources for this new topic regarding bilingual children & the advantages of being bilingual compared to the previous topic about how temperament & attachment contributes to a child's criminal behavior in the future. Looking at the topics,of course anyone would pick the criminal one as the word CRIMINAL itself sounds interesting but I've been researching for a few days & sadly didn't find much info about that. =(
Anyway now I'm back on track !!!!! Feels so good to be actually putting pieces of my term paper together. *semangat* So I shall reward myself by logging into Facebook wheeeeeee.
Finally I'm able to control myself from being to obsessed with Facebook as I have the initiative to log out without being told/after spending 3 hours poking cute guys from Korea,Japan,Taiwan,Berkeley & etc etc. & the guy from Berkeley actually poked me backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ahaha,damn random wey,I was just looking around the USA network & I thought hey people who study in Berkeley should be pretty smart rite maybe I should poke him since he looks cute too wtf. Asian. From Taiwan. Omigod Taiwannnnnnnnnn, Mike He's birth place. *clicks add as friend* But after a few hours I started to regret because after examining his pictures properly, he is quite poser inclined. -_-" Shit how? Can I request not to be friends with him anymore wtf.
On a happier note,our 1st Malaysian Can-Or-Naut (not) blasted off to space just now,saw the live telecast,not bad la. The rocket & all the flames made me think of Physics sial. Damn how I hate Physics! Newton shouldn't have invented so many theories la,so curious for what?? Ish,made us susah payah memorize so many theories & the worst part for me is to apply them because hell,trying to make sense of the theory is already tough what more applying them?
Surprisingly guys score better for Physics yet they can be so clueless at times. Pfft.
I was actually praying silently during the blast off. 0_o
I mean,Dr. SMS ( I forgot his full name) is indeed representing our country to ~~menjejak bulan~~ go to the international space station or whtever just orbitting around the Earth it seems so I won't want anything to.........choy choy choy! *touchwood* But I'm glad that he is chosen because he looks cuter than the other guy. & taller. So okay la at least if people from other country ask me to describe our 1st Can-Or-Naut I can brag bout him being tall dark & handsome besides being a doctor as well. & according to LYL he is also A PART TIME MODEL ya allah terror nye.
Aku bangga aku warga Malaysia.

Of relationships.

2007-10-07T18:12:48Z

Ish I find it damn annoying la when you try to view someone's profile but you can't. I mean whats the point of having Facebook when you just wanna display your teeny weeny pic there for people to see?? Simply want people to poke only la pfft poke whores.
Omigod I'm refreshing my homapage every 5 minutes. =,="
Ish geram,I should log off la. But its so nice to know that someone has serenaded me.....aww......eventhough its done virtually ahaha.
Anyway,before I start to write my 3000 words term paper,I want to blog about something which I think is pretty personal & not as random as the previous few entries. Hmm,how should I put it? Dunno la,like haven't been posting any serious issue entries.
Nowadays when I browse through people's profile, the thing that really pisses me off is when a boyfriend & a girlfriend send each other those lovey dovey comments. Okay not including those once in a blue moon "I love you honey" or "You are the best thing that ever happened in my life" but I'm talking bout those daily basis every hour 2 comments kinda thing.
Why? Do you really have to announce to the entire world that you are in love? Whats the big deal of having a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Now I find all these comments a tad too superficial because love is about action not just posting comments. I'm not sure whether I'm the right person to even talk about matters of the heart because the duration of my previous 3 relationships only lasted not more than half a year.
No not one,ALL 3 combined together. Damn pathetic la if I were to elaborate the history to my potential future husband.
But anyway,thats partially the point. So what if the couple breaks up? How would they feel if they look back at what they wrote?
Its plain silly la. Maybe I've grown thats why all these do not appeal to me anymore. Recently theres this guy who sends me forwarded messages everyday & calls whenever he feels like talking to me. He also like to keep track on what am I doing from time to time. I haven't been reporting to someone about my daily activities since erm,I dunno,3 years ago? He reminds me of my highschool days,where girls will giggle & pass their handphones around just to show their friends what did their crush/boyfriends sent them. Then they will try to sms their honeybuns every hour to keep them updated regarding what they are up to. SMS-ing your crush or lover was HUGE. Its like people might die if you take away their handphones for a day.
I want something real,someone who loves me for who I am & not just proclaiming their undying love in an conventional way but in the end they rip your heart to pieces. I have no idea how a simple request would turn into something so complicated. Of course many people would say "Sure what is so hard to love someone for who they are?"
I've experienced ths issue twice. I thought being in a relationship is equivalent to being honest with each other but heck no. Once you are honest,they start to become doubtful. Its like "Damn should I really tolerate all these?" Then the common men defence mechanism will slowly kick in (if there is such thing) & in order to prevent themselves from going through unnecessary procedures just to get intimate with their girlfriends they do the "ditch & run".
I envy those who found their soulmates. Those couples who need not say a thing yet they know exactly whats going through each others mind,those who have the patient to deal with arguments & accept each others' differences,those who would hold each others hands & grow old together.
I wish.....upon a lucky star........
Omigod the effects of Facebook-ing for a whole day. Facebook is evillllllllllllllllllllllll.

I caught the bug.

2007-10-07T08:44:59Z

The Facebook bug.
This is crazy I tell you,I get excited when I sign in & find 19 new notifications.
I even picture myself superpoking random people who were walking around when I went to tapau food just now. 0_o
Friendster is so dull & boring compared to Facebook now. Damn.
AIsey anyway I hope I won't be as addicted as Aaron Slut Morris till he was suffering from withdrawal symptoms from not being able to log in to Facebook. Bloody hell too extreme la you !!!
But Facebook is fun la,hehe,can practice our generosity by sending people all kinds of kinki/nice gifts. & it feels good to know that your friends actually wanna hold hands with you,hug you,use the force on you & etc etc.
Holy shit I have a 3000 words term paper to write ! Shouldn't be Facebook-ing. Or MSN-ing. Or emoticon-ing. Or else I won't be able to start term paper-ing.
Isn't it cool that the word "-ing" can do wonders? If you don't know how to describe an action,just add the word "-ing" behind the noun & voila! it becomes a verb.
& omigod what is this?? I'm chatting with Lim Yong Long now & he threw a sheep at me via superpoke! So childish la,he probably thinks I check my Facebook every 2 minutes la now? *clicks on Superpoke*
& yea the previous post I forgot to mention.....
Thank You LIM YONG LONG for taking my favourite picture of the year !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & also the matchmaking.

Semester break !

2007-10-05T07:07:14Z

Woohoo we have a one week break & whats better to start it off with an entry with pics of me !!! Nyeh heh heh. Nolah, I feel like writing about what to do during this week because I hope I can finish 80% of all my assignments by 15th of October. Thats like half of October gone you know after the sem break. & then we have another 1 & a half months to go for our finals !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time flies. & before we know it we would probably graduate already. 0_o

As promised,heh heh...

Anyway,we had Psychology social gathering at Chicken Hartz last night & trust me,DO NOT EVER GO THERE because...
1) the food is at the edible borderline & they don't seem fresh
2) who would pay RM20 to eat what we could get for RM10 or less in KFC/McDonalds/any fast food outlets
3) fucking male customers who sit near the food area would try their best to sit up straight so they can get a good glimpse of what they wanna see when female customers with/without boobies walk past
Seriously man,whats wrong with those fucktards? I mean,you can probably surf for porn for free rite? Why do it here in public where people are not even half nake or what. Was damn tempted to "accidently" drop my plate of food on them but I was worried that they might stalk me when I go to the parking lot. Rape & run case wtf. So anyway,we had a great time despite having to fight for food with people who seemed to have not been eating for a week. But it was all cool.
Finally I finished the Taiwanese drama Why Why Love. SO BLOODY EMO LA I CRIED & CREATED A MINI TISSUE HILL ON MY DESK. T_____________________T I was wactching it till 1am plus last night,with all the crying & sleeping late,my eyes very bengkak now. The 1st half of the drama was all about funny funny stuff la,then towards the end the lead actor has some Wilson desease & apparently he was going to die & all the emo shit came out. HIs father who didn't really cared bout him spoke to him & his brother whom he always compete with was willing to sacrifice himself & donate his liver/kidney/some organ in the body. & the most emo part the lead actor was trying to make his girlfriend forget about him & all the things he did while secretly he still loves her alot,made me cry so so much !!! T_______________________________________________T

If he is about to die in the drama,who wouldn't cry ?!!!

But anyway he didn't die la,ish made me cry for nuts. But its a damn good drama. Better then Devil Beside You. Or maybe equally good la,just that I haven't watched a drama which made me cry so much since the Korean drama Stairway To Heaven. Dramas that make people cry are good. & I'm sooooooooooooooo in love with MIke He Jun Xiang !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3

Me & my equally crazy about heels best friend, Ee Lin. MIne is the red & white, hers the brown & stripes. Hehe. <3 <3 <3

This is me & her. Gloria said we look like sisters. 0_o"

And this,my favourite picture of the year..... >,<

Simply

2007-09-30T10:22:56Z

Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
ish
Barney Stinson says:
ok im done
Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
apa buat
Barney Stinson says:
tadi melajar
Barney Stinson says:
belajar
Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
MELAJARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
ahaha
Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
Melajar
Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
M...M.....Melajar
Barney Stinson says:
-________________-"
Barney Stinson says:
so excited
Barney Stinson says:
OOOOO IS A MELAJAR DEI WTF
Barney Stinson says:
o.O " MELAJAR WAAAAA
Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
HAHA
Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
seriously i'm laughing so hard u can fit 2 fists in my mouth
Barney Stinson says:
put 3 tennis ball inside
Barney Stinson says:
i think already world record
Suet Ling = Aja Aja Fighting !!! says:
u tried??
Barney Stinson says:
nope.. if my mouth was that big. ineeded a 15 inch dick to match

Reflective.

2007-09-28T05:25:07Z

Okay so I'm left with 1 more essay to go,& I'm posting my 2nd entry for today holy cow why am I so free I should be searching for sources to write about behavior. But I guess since I don't have inspirations to write now,I might as well treat blogging as a warm up to reduce writers block wtf.
I've been driving extra carefully nowadays, I stop 500 meters away from a car, I wait for 5 seconds at a junction to make sure its safe to turn, & I never flash or honk people who are driving slowly or just because they look plain ugly or maybe performing some disgusting acts in the car like digging for gold what the hell pollute the drivers' eyes can cause accident if not careful.
Been busy doing almost due assignments with single line topics such as "Why do people hold particular attitudes?", "Why are individuals more willing to take risks in a group situation?" & " Why do peple explain their behavior in different ways?" For non Psycho students, they might go WTF HOW TO WRITE 1000 WORDS ESSAY FOR THAT?? But yea la,thats what we have to do,just look for theories, add abit of our own knowledge or experience & voila ! goreng a nice piece of essay to pass up. I miss doing Maths, we gotta stimulate our brains with algebras & yada yada some time rite?
Shit this is unfair for those who worked their ass off to complete their essays. I mean,I'm probably the only one who goreng stuffs most of the time because of my laziness & lack of motivation to search for related info-s. But I did borrow heaps of books,they are lying nicely on the floor like some gallery woot. My parents get the impression as if I'm working really hard on my assignments because they saw the books (evidence) and me staying up late typing away. Huhuhu.
Yesterday's Community Mental Health class was about being An Adult. Ms Grace said when we are living on our own & paying our own espenses, then we are qualified to be an adult. Part of it is true la,but I was thinking more about the responsibility & emotion part. Am I an adult now? Apparently not. But I did alot of thinking recently.
He said "Hi" again on MSN,but this time instead of appearing offline immediately,I chose to talk to him. Please,how many times can I appear offline? & why can't I talk to him normally? If I can't, it only proves that the Vietnamese Revolution is not over yet. Theres only a fine line between love & hate,but now I neither love nor hate him,so thats cool. I've pulled myself together & decided to face this with an open mind. He is no doubt just a friend of mine. I read from a girl's blog when she refer to those heartache wanna die cause he is not coming back issues that "The best revenge is to live well".
I can't help but agree because although it is cliche but that is just what life is all about. We live for ourselves,not anyone else. I can't imagine why was I being such an emo shit during then. I am living very well now,been enjoying my Uni life, so glad & thankful to have amazingsweetcaring friends to support me. I'm grateful for what I have as I know there are millions of other people who are less fortunate then me. I'm contented.
I'm not going to call the next boyfriend of mine my other half,like Ms Grace said, we are ONE,we don't need another person to complete us. But then again,I'm adopting the 3 years policy so we shall discuss this 3 years later. For now,whats the rush? I'm just 20 & theres so much more for me to explore & experience. Although sometimes I do yearn for the love from a special someone,but now the love from my family & friends is more than enough to keep me going. Just to prove that I'm doing great ( & also cause I haven't been posting pics of me for such a long time hoho save for the impromptu crying pic after the accident), here are some of my pics taken this week,will post more when I'm done with my assignments wheeeee.

This was a group pic but because I'm so vain & I like how I look in it so much I cropped it ! Wah I got million dollar smile wey (tatau malu nye) >,< & is that a mild cleavage ?!! Please tell me it is T____T

This was also a group pic but I cropped it because Ee Lin closed her eyes,I'm damn ethical okay I won't put people's ugly pics up unless I think they are prettier than me in real life wtf. But yea la,I like this pic of mine too heh heh look at the mengada pose. Ish when I take individually I don't look presentable. =,="

Last but not least,a group pic. Finally !

Ling,Lin & Leen. & yea la,this is why I crop pictures because I look so short compared to them !!! T___T I love them,my silly billies. & yeshhh,we pakat on wearing green that day,haha,cause we love Mother Nature oh so much hoho.
Okay now back to assignments !!! Have a great weekend people. Sayang semua ! =)

Its been awhile...

2007-09-28T03:50:25Z

So it was last Monday & Tuesday,the two days that changed my life.
Okay not exactly some major life altering experience but yea,I crashed my car,twice.
On monday it was me speeding along the highway (please,who doesn't?) then all of suddent his stupid car slammed on his breaks in front & I smashed my car against his. Its a miracle my Sentra suffered a few scratches but his Corolla was, erm, bad. I think it sort of like cracked from the bumper to the top of the boot. Anyway,Daddy tried to settle it but the bugger tried to con my Daddy by saying his car used some BMW paint la & so on. So my Dad gangster la,just told him "Then we shall just make a police report" & went off hahaha. Serves him right becauee he has to go through all the time consuming procedures to claim from the insurance company & etc.
So I was feeling victorious because we only have to pay RM300 ( & if I rayu with my good looks we might get RM150 wtf ) & I gave my car a pat on the hood for suffering minor injuries even the crash was bad. According to my sis ( who didn't take Physics during highschool woot ) his car was stationary & mine was moving so obviously the impact was greater towards his car but not mine.
The next day,I was blocking a car a lil & that fucker was so impatient he honked me several times from behind. So yea,I just thought of moving away as quickly as possible but I forgot to check whether there is any car driving past me. So I swerved a lil to the right & BAM, I hit a 3 month old Peugeot. The fucker behind saw what happened & quickly sped off,konon my car was blocking his way til the extent he had to honk as if theres no tomorrow.
I'm not putting the blame solely on impatient & fucked up drivers la,because I should have the "I don't give a shit as long as I pandu cermat, menjadi pemandu berhemat" attitude. Sigh,the Peugeot guy was nicer,he checked on me to see if I was alright & even helped me picked up the frame of my lifeless front lights. T_T I suggested on making a police report again,but then......I was thinking whether they will take away my licence or send me to jail for commiting the same offence twice within 24 hours. T__T I thought I shouldn't give him a fake number since he was so kind,tak sampai hati.
So he gave my Dad a discount, from RM 1500 to RM 1200. & my Daddy didn't give me those kinda full blow 3 days 2 nights massive scolding. He was pretty calm & even joked with my relatives bout the accident, asking them to buy 3D 4D Toto Magnum all.
After what happened, I realized our parents do love us to bits & no matter how much they nag from time to time,its just the way they show that they care. I was reduced to tears when all my Dad wanted to know if I was alright, & not how much he has to pay (eh this is something new considering the strong Chinese kiam siap genes in him) & yea,he didn't even like try to reduce my pocket money every month as to pay him back.
He just, bear the consequences of the mistakes that his daughter made.
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I love you Dad & Mum !

Trauma

2007-09-18T08:59:00Z

Two accidents in two days,thats a fucking record.
And I'm still alive.